You see, my son has medical problems and is a bit on the busy side. A teacher's nightmare, right? I can't get him to sit down quietly for more than about 3 minutes. Most the time, Logan spins. If he is not running, twirling, hitting, smashing, "biffing and bashing", or screaming, I start checking his temperature. He must be sick. I can get him to sit down and read books with me pretty well, but even in that activity there is constant movement. Add people and you add energy. I often ask myself, "Is this normal or is this ADHD?" Maybe a little of both. How much activity is "normal" for a four year old?
I have this insatiable desire, as most mom's do, to have perfectly polite, well behaved geniouses. My boys are very smart. In fact, Logan, at four, is already reading books. I don't just mean through rote memorization. He is sounding out new words and figuring out the english idiosyncracies or rules that indoctrinate our language. I have also gotten many compliments about how polite my boys are. It is the well behaved portion I worry about. I cannot seem to figure out ways to calm them.
They are tornadoes. They are busy. They are boys. I get frustrated when I see other people's children sitting calmly, waiting for their parents to finish their conversations so they can move on to the next task. I get embarrassed because it is my sons who are thrashing around like a wild monkeys when my friends' children behave more like aged cats.
I know it is petty. I know I shouldn't put so much pressure on myself, or my children. I know I shouldn't avoid social invitations because I am afraid my boys will be too wild. I do though. I do put pressure on myself. I do worry that people will think my boys are wild banshees and not want them to come over and play. I want to nourish the spirits God has given them, but am, at the same time, fearful that I am not cutting it. I guess every mom goes through this, or at least I hope I am not alone... (Sigh)
